today

In the grand scheme of things.

Currently reading:
Suite Française by Irène Némirovsky.
I don’t usually buy books since my sister takes care of that, but I randomly bought this one off the shelf a few weeks ago.
When I got home, I looked at this little post-it note I stuck up more than a year ago, reminding myself to check out this very book.
The things I forget.
Thanks, awesome sub-conscience.

Something new:
Law can be a tedious and boring field to work in, but sometimes you hear a story or two that’ll make you change your mind.
There’s a guy at work who looks like he’s ready to retire any minute now, even though he wouldn’t be able to remember to with that disappearing memory of his…
Anyhow, he explained to me the other day, how a bunch of seemingly useless documents I showed him were more significant than the trash I thought they were.
Apparently, those papers were part of a case involving a few crooks, who created companies that posed as banks, but were really involved in a good old-fashioned drug trade.
While their asses were busted for drugs, the lawyers who brought them down and even the auditors who were told to check up on the company, received numerous death threats from anonymous callers.
As much as I’d like to say there was a huge shoot-up and everyone died, they all lived to tell the tale and the bad guys got thrown into cells.
Moral of the story?
Lawyers can be heartless, arrogant and greedy, but they’re fighting on the right side.
Usually.

Injuries:
One mysterious cut.
Life is so cruel.

Chocolates:
Too many today.
Someone at work, whose house is overflowing with chocolates, brought heaps in for us.
By the way, most of the staff are women…

Nice thoughts:
Baci chocolates told me:

“Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength; loving someone deeply gives you courage“.

I’ve repeated that so many times today!
I like how it’s repeated in multiple languages, so if a line fails in English, just seduce someone in the sexy foreign way.

It beats my first one:

“The more I love you my darling, the more you flee from me“.

How fucking depressing.

But my friend’s one was interesting:

“For every woman there is a seducer. Her happiness lies in her meeting him“.

That’s a thought.

xo
anna

Blown away.

Good:
I came to work late today, only to discover the boss was away on leave. It was such a peaceful, peaceful work day. Score.
At lunch, I bought the coat I’ve had my eye on and discovered it was on sale. Also bought something else funky. Double score.
Finally booked myself in for a little beauty therapy on Monday to spoil myself for no reason whatsoever.

Bad:
From 3 to 4 o’clock everyday I always seem to conk out at my desk. I have no idea why and no amount of coffee or tea can stop it from happening. Must be some rare sleeping disorder because it happens to my workmate too when she’s at uni.

Mistakes:
Forgot to check the client’s ID so someone out there might be running around with a Certificate of Title for someone else’s land. Lucky them.

Something new:
Ugly things can be pretty cute.

Laughs:
Pick-up stories - are those real?

xo
anna

We find we’re twisting with no room to move about

Something new:
A man walked into the lift today and he didn’t turn around to face the doors! He stared back at us, while we all stood around awkwardly until we eventually scrambled out on the ground floor. That’s something you don’t see everyday. Maybe he was a foreigner or just needed to gaze at his reflection in the mirror at the back of the lift for a while.

Wish I said:
Nothing at all sometimes. I can’t always be Switzerland.

Bad:
Somehow got charged $10 extra by stupid tight-ass Koreans for lunch, only to realise afterwards, when it was too late. Sad, but true. Sob.

Good:
Tomorrow, I’ll liaise with a client. That’s a change.
I bumped into a friend I hadn’t seen in a while & got a funky new black & white scarf.

Just thoughts:
Dreams, dreams.
What to say?
Why must some overemphasis their need for self-satisfaction.
Major mental slap to home wreckers who prance around smiling daily.

Little Billy doesn’t mind,
Little Billy’s doing fine.

xo
anna

 

Hello autumn 

After failing a few times, I think I’m learning a thing or two.

Within a decade, I could actually have it pretty good.

If I don’t screw up in the meantime!

Then, I can laugh at how I accidentally fell into the legal industry and decided to be a lawyer, when I thought it was so not meant for me.

I can laugh at how we used to be.

I can laugh at those moments I had with people I met along the way.

I can laugh at all these ideas I have, like I’ve had barely any experience to measure them on…

No doubt the world will feel smaller and countless people will walk in & out of my life.

But for now, besides all the deep & meaningful junk, it’s all hard work… and some play.

Just happy the roosters & titans pulled through this weekend!
Four points ahead in my work’s tipping comp.
Sweet.
Fingers crossed for the rest.

Next week is a three day work week!
I only work Tuesdays to Fridays now and next week the Easter weekend starts from Friday.
Love it.

Time to give the new polaroid a work-out too.

It feels like summer again.

I won’t hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I’m sure
There’s no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate
I’m yours.

xo
anna

 

 

Somewhere, someplace in the heart of the city;
We’ll dance with those lights ’cause they’re all that’s pretty. 

“There was never yet an uninteresting life.
Such a thing is an impossibility.
Inside of the dullest exterior there is a drama, a comedy and a tragedy …”

From the biggest mistakes you make,
Evolve the greatest lessons you’ll ever learn.

This will all make sense one day.

xo
anna

 

 

Refresh 

I just realised I’ve had this blog since ‘05. Not bad hey?
And three years passed… Just like that.

Has much changed? Hell yeah!

So, time to pull out an old quiz to see what goodies ‘07 brought:

1. What did you do in 2007 that you’d never done before?

I got a REAL job. Haha! Too many to say really, but highlights include going to uni, running around the courts, a nose piercing, passing out, failing and lots of naughty things, but these lips are sealed.

2. Did you keep your New Years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

The sad thing is, I think they’re the same every year. Get a good job with decent pay, get fit & eat right, spend more time with lovers & friends and take chances. But I guess I didn’t do too bad hehe.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

No one that close to me.

4. Did anyone close to you die?

Family.

5. What countries did you visit?

Nope, no time or money for that… Yet!

6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?

Better marks? I guess more time & money to travel away. Also, peace of mind.

7. What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory?

17th July, 2007. Happy One Year baby! ♥

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Taking a step forward for a future career in the legal industry… I’ll decide what to do later. I hope.

9. What was your biggest failure?

Uni. Like holy crap.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

Nothing major, just hit by a massive migraine or two from work.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

Shoes, hotels & food! Nah, I’d say this macbook. It’s pretty sweet.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?

We all did okay. No one stuffed up too badly Or did they…?

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?

Actually, myself. BAD ANA!

14. Where did most of your money go?

Savings *proud*

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

Sleep! Dude, it’s heavenly now.

16. What song/album will always remind you of 2007?

Music is my hot, hot sex. HAHA. I have no idea.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

a) Happier or sadder? Definitely happier. More content.

b) Thinner or fatter? A tiny bit more toned… Getting there!

c) Richer or poorer? I’m richer (But still on a measly salary)

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

I wish I’d gone to more events and I’d gone skydiving like I’d planned to.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Opened my mouth.

20. How did you spend Christmas?

By myself at home. Bit lonesome really… Stupid family!

21. Who did you spend the most time on the phone with?

I wonder!

22. Did you fall in love in 2007?

Again? Too tiring! It’s still going on from ‘06 ♥

23. How many one night stands in this last year?

As Fatman Scoop says, BE FAITHFUL!

24. What was your favourite TV programme?

Heroes & How I Met Your Mother. Awesome shows.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

I don’t want to get fired

26. What was the best book(s) you read?

The English Patient (I actually don’t mind Ondaatje), The Time Traveller’s Wife (It’s different), Flowers In The Attic (It’s a disturbing idea) and Hans Christian Andersen’s stories. The Little Match Girl makes me tear up. So sad!

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

Ana + piano + singing = work in progress. Haha! I wish. In terms of taste, someone’s got me into more trance & you can’t avoid house & electro, but hip hop, rnb & soul are still my true love.

28. What did you want and get?

All you need is love. Geez. I’ve mentioned it heaps, but a full-time job. Woohoo!

29. What did you want and not get?

A higher salary and a holiday away.

30. What were your favourite films of this year?

Hot Fuzz, Knocked Up, The Science of Sleep, 28 Weeks Later, Babel, 300, The Bourne Ultimatum & The Host.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

The girls and the boy surprised me for my 19th with dinner at Georges & drinks at Slip Inn ♥

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

Doing a lot better in uni.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?

Corporate for workdays, a lil more smart casual for going out, but always comfy in dresses for every occasion.

34. What kept you sane?

Music, sleep, friends & the lover ♥

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Milo Ventimiglia & Pharrell Williams. Hot damn.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?

The election. Ha ha.

37. Who did you miss?

Friends.

38. Who was the best new person you met?

My work & uni mates

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007.

Less talk, more action.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year?

Work it harder, make it better
Do it faster, makes us stronger
More than ever hour after
Our work is never over

Thanks Daft Punk.

xo
anna

 

Before Sunset

Daydream delusion, limousine eyelash
Oh baby with your pretty face
Drop a tear in my wineglass
Look at those big eyes
See what you mean to me
Sweet-cakes and milkshakes
I’m a delusion angel
I’m a fantasy parade
I want you to know what I think
Don’t want you to guess anymore
You have no idea where I came from
We have no idea where we’re going
Lodged in life
Like branches in a river
Flowing downstream
Caught in the current
I carry you
You’ll carry me
That’s how it could be
Don’t you know me?
Don’t you know me by now?

… But, I’m still glad I took that chance.

xo
anna

Ana’s Adventures

 

I think that’d make an awesome comic. Hell yeah.

 

Anyway, lots happened since the last time I posted, which was back in August.
In other words, I’ve made a pathetic attempt in keeping this up to date with life & stuff.

It’s too tiring to think of the past few months.

At the moment, I’m in holiday bliss mode.
No parents, no sister, free as a bird, not so broke for once.
(Rob me & die)

Parents are off being korean & playing golf, while my sister is off saying goodbye to her degree by touring Europe.
And me?
I’ve never appreciated sitting on my ass, watching movie after movie, more in my life :]
Have I mentioned how much I love annual leave?
Too bad I haven’t worked for a year… yet.

I’ve never really had a chance to sit there & work on my singing either until now.
So that’s cool.
One day I’ll try to make something quality, but lately the more I sing, the more my nose gets blocked.
Crazy.

I think my head is in the clouds.

The other day I walked for twenty minutes to the mall (Yeah, how American) to pick up some supplies because I’m running dangerously low on food, only to find that it was closed. FMD! Forty minutes of my life I’ll never get back … Where did all my food go? :[

I had a small get together at my place last week, where I cooked up some dinner for a few mates who dropped by or stayed over.
So that was sweet.
I can actually cook for people :]
That’s right.
Brownie points, bitch.

Yeah.

Well, I don’t think I should mention the lows.
And believe me, they neared Antarctic.
But, I have this new method of erasing bad memories.
I just delete whatever I can, or look at it and think, okay I’ll learn this & this from it, so next time, I’ll try not to be an ass.
Not saying it always works.
Usually I’d talk to my sister, hoping she’d be helpful because she did a unit of Clinical Psychology, but she’s probably cruising around the French Riviera right now… Loser.
Still, I can’t cry & whine about everything.

It feels totally awesome to just connect with people, you know?
I’ve had, like, really deep talks with friends and you know, it’s meaningful and poignant.

Anyways, a lot of friends have been too busy for other friends lately.
I’m guilty of that and I know it’s no excuse, but I’ve been working full-time and …
That’s all I can say.
No worries.
We’ll all hold hands and sing songs by the campfire soon …

There’s nothing all so new and great about me lately, although I have a new piercing and my wardrobe is a little bigger?

Then again, I haven’t gotten kinky piercings like some couples. Hehe. Six months.

At this stage, I’m feeling a little more ambitious.
If I keep working my ass off, maybe more opportunities will turn up & I’ll be seeing more dollar signs.
I’ll finally move out, make ends meet somehow, look after myself and most of all, learn to cook better :]
HAHA.

I’m getting there.

FIVE YEAR GOAL = PARALEGAL

I don’t care who I have to sleep with to make it!

HAHA jokes baby.
Unless you become a lawyer in a few years time… Wow. Mission impossible. Hot.

I hope future me looks back and laughs at this, thinking something like, “Hah! Made it in two and half!”
Instead of sighing and wiping a tear away, as I juggle three babies and nasty ex-husbands.
Oh damn, that’s scary.

At what age should women start saying No to abortions?

Wait, that’s too hard to answer.
It all depends on the situation after all.

What a cruel, cruel world some babies are born into.
Sad stuff.

Holy crap.
The women at work are already making me think of marriage and babies.
Way too soon!
Why must I be the baby at work?

I need a holiday away.

Fingers crossed for Nelsons Bay.

 

Lately life is…

Lunches
Lenni’s booty shaking
Maccas maccas maccas
Markets
Horror fest
Pink string
Law ballers
Free drinks means bad idea ana
Headaches & long nights
GAP food
Fresh starts
Trika treats
Rainy days in
Music experimentation
ICE CREAM :]
Korean delights
Xmas work freebies
Rained in cocktails
And always work, work, work.

xo
anna

 

I’m stuck in the 22, now catch me when I’m sick & tired

the bigger picture

xo
anna

Simple songs.

Time, is taking a toll on my life
These days keep on passing me by
I want to see you but there’s no time
So I sit here and stare at the sky
And I’m hoping that you realise
I want to feel you
But there’s no time

Yesterday you said that we can get away
The day before I was alone like any other day
3 days ago I wrote this song just for you
Will I ever get through, through to you

Playing over & over again.

xo
anna