today

esp. if you’re rich and you can indulge in the odd johnny walker blue every night

this was a gift from a fam friend, but daamn how nice is the box =)

it’s funny how so many have come to love it
this poison

did you know poison in german is Gift?
LOL

it makes sense for them to call it that…
in a country where beer is cheaper than water =)
really.

hmm

It’s not fair.

I was so close to purposefully leaving some $ on a counter & doin a runner today
…sounds crazy yea?

so, why?

I was in the bathroom of parra library today
& noticed a middle-aged asian woman just scrubbing somethin in the sink
but I didn’t think anything of it

Looking closer, I noticed she was washing clothes.
She looked dishevelled & was a bit of a mess.
Just beside her, lay a large backpack, with a half-eaten loaf of bread on top.

There’s usually alotta homeless ppl around parra library
so I’m used to it yea?
Like most other times, I thought, damn.. poor woman
as I washed my hands & watched her scrub

However, a girl who looked only a few years younger than me
Who had messy hair & was wearing a red jumper & camo cargo shorts
Walked in
& spoke to her mum, the person scrubbing, in korean:

“Mum, the library’s going to be closing soon. Quick, we’ll have to leave here,”

…

and that’s why.

I’m wondering what stopped me now.

Is it what stops everyone who’s asked to donate anythin to charity?

If I distance myself from this, I won’t feel a thing?

It’s not my fault they ended up that way?

Oh how sad, now what’s for dinner?

Doing things like the red shield appeal next sunday is a way to feel like you’re doing something right…
but I dunno.. to me, nothing ever feels like enough.
no matter how many people are helped.

lol not tryna be a Mother Theresa or anything.

nobody needs to do anything.
nobody was asked to anything.

but sometimes I think it’d just be NICE
if just for a lil bit of time every day
we just stopped thinking about ourselves.
and getting absorbed
in those stupid, selfish thoughts

if you think nobody gives a shit about you,
think about half the world that no one else gives a shit about.

if you think school’s giving you hell,
think about living in a real hell of a war-torn country

yea real bombs & shit.
ha ha cool.

put life into perspective babes.

and if you still can’t see what I mean
why the fuck are you reading this?

but some people I know are going through some heavy stuff
& I guess charity does start at home.

So if you need a lil charity?

I can be your home
xo
anna

edit:
mmm… I think too much & ask too many Qs =)

opps.